This is the place i let all my feelings out . Can ? Overall is my blog anyway .

I am confused state right now and I don't know what the hell is wrong with me and what did I do wrong to u . ?

I don't know . Its hard for me to say I hate you because its no use at all and doesn't make sense or should I sae hating myself or calling me stupid suits me best in the situation .

I thought my plan going to work is to be closer like before but it fails .

U didn't explain it to me why and u don't even care less about how I felt this few days .

I felt lonely and keep remembering the past and I nid to follow what the others said that I need to move on and soon later I need to let go of u .

I really can't afford to lose u neither its hard for me to see u away from me by my side .

To me u're the best of all . I don't hate u and I rather hate myself now because I felt as if I am doing is not enough .

I got plans for now and the future just for u to make u happy and not feeling lonely . But dear why must it be now ? Why is must be me why not others ?

I keep sending u msg and all I want is just a Explaination and is'nt that simple and after that I wont keep buggin u every now and then .

I just don't understand . I really love u alot but its ur choice anyway and I will be far far far away from u not with ur by urside always . Because that what u want and I can't afford to do that and I was force . I was force to let go of u and becoming together is not gonna be the same .

I want to be more and more closer till we graduate and I guess my plan will not work this time wrong .

Its not fair and this is not my payback :((

I AM TRYING SO HARD TO SMILE BUT I CAN'T

I AM TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET THE PAST BUT I KEEP REMEMBERING THOSE HAPPY MOMENTS .

I AM TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET A SPECIAL FRIEND BUT I KEEP REMEMBERING THE FACE .

I AM REALLY TRYING SO HARD