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Maybe I'm just not important :(

i read your side of story . i hope u have the time to read my story .

First of all I didn't pester you . I message u for reconfirmation . U got it all wrong
Count it ; Total of 7 outings with your same friends .

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK :( THE PROBLEM ABOUT THIS

First we planned to go to the Zoo and she don't like Zoo due to some reason so I decided to go to the Flyer as I got extra 1 ticket which I bought early this year . So I decided to treat her for the trip . First few weeks of holidays , I was working and practically I'm busy and only have a one day off to spent with my love ones . So I asked her "When is she free?" She told me let her clear up her important stuff like open house preparations , trainings and such and give her about 2weeks . Unexpectedly I received a letter from the NCC HQ saying that I'm selected to go for the Cadet Officer Course for 3 weeks and I told her that probably we might be going after my course . After my course , I ask again when are you free and she told me give her two weeks to think . Hello ? Two weeks going to 2009 and by that time I'm already away from Singapore in case she don't know . I did give her time to think and I ask her again on my last day of camp . How was it and when is she free? She don't even know and I suggest to her why not friday and I didn't know that friday is the sec 1 registration until she told me . And she told me that she can't go out anymore because she got last minute stuff to complete . After the moment I heard that , I was totally flare up and sad

Let me start it slowly after school ends . I know we already put a full stop to it but hack cares .

I worked at Causeway point which is so close to your home area . Its not as if "Oh I work near your place , I want you to drop by at Metro and say a word of hello or something." as if i'm forcing you or etc . What I mean was if you happen to walk around CWP , do drop by my dept .

She went to catch a movie with her siblings .

I came to look for you . I was running from Woodlands Mrt to the top level to look for you and talk to you for a while before I go for my work . I was breathless at that point of time and couldn't talk to you that much . i went to work after that and i message you again whether we can have a dinner or something because i have my meals alone and no companion . she told me she can't because she with her siblings . i understand her situation . Doesn't mean you're with your siblings , u can't drop by at my place . Your siblings know who am I .
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2nd time I saw her with her friends

This one nothing much and I didn't expect her to visit me because we were some sort of avoiding each other .

20% storewide discount

I was working 3 days of full shift from 10 - 10pm or even 11pm and I told her about this thing happen at my working place maybe she can buy stuff at a cheaper price . She went to my working place to bought girl stuff and I asked her why u didn't drop by Toys dept . She told me I was not there . Hello? I was working for 3 days of full shift and u told me that I was not there .

I don't force you and I hate forcing people too . I told her if u happen to drop by Causeway Point do come and visit me . But it didn't . I admire her close friend which not pretty close to me . Came to look for me and talked for a while . How I wish it was her .

1 word : Sad

Get back to the point now .

you have the time to go out with your friends but not a single day out with me . that is nonsense totally nonsense . maybe i'm just not so important to you now because I'm no longer at Swiss Cottage . I'm getting sick and tired listening to this excuse of yours "OH IM BUSY. IM BUSY . IM BUSY" . Same old excuse which I heard since day 1 . Put you in my shoes how do you feel it ?
I guess you will feel sad and angry . Think so . You told me that I'm provoking u at times and I didn't know u kept to yourself . If you hate it , just tell me but you didn't and you replied me in a sarcastic tone . I thought it was a joke . If u hate it , u should tell me but the reason is why u didn' tell me . Did you even notice that we have been message not that much nowadays ? There are few reason to it . First I know you're busy with stuff and etc and I don't wish to disturb you at times . Secondly when I first message you I can feel that something is wrong somewhere and that is the reason I never message you that much . Your message with only 2 or 5 words like that and I can sesnse that something wrong with our r'ship . I don't want to voice it out and I scared that will be arguments and such and I just go on with the flow . Yup you said I don't get what you trying to say and such . I agree with you because I'm a lower graded guy unlike those people who uses perfect english . I'm not referring to you . When you told me/explaining to me that , some how you like SINDHIR MENYIDHIR me . I have the feelings that "Oh I'm a Normal Tech Stream who doesn't understand what an Express Stream english is all about." That is what I've been thinking .
Things are way to different when I'm no longer in Swiss Cottage because u don't see me that often in school lesson . Who know in your heart u might be having this evil thinking "Oh he gone and I've got freedom"
Did you know who causes all this ? Its you girl not me . Have u ever done reflection about life? Doubt so . First of all you are to busy with stuff . I'm getting sicked and tired to listen to your excuse . BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY .
I'm not saying I'm right at times I'm wrong too because sometimes when we quarreled/arguments . I tend to put more oil to the fire and make it more bigger . I admit I always tend to that when it come to arguments . Actually the tickets is meant for my best friend and I lied to her saying to her that my family members need it more and I need to give them . I decided to date u out in the flyer instead and have a good talk in flyer because our R/S is going haywire . I even lied to my friend and I told my friend about it . She told me she okay with it and she understands how am I feeling right now . my attitude sucks yes i admit but u look the bad side of me . did u ever defence me on what the others told you about me by saying the good points instead of the bad . I think its a NO . Few words before I leave .

OUR RELATIONSHIPS GONE HAYWIRE. BOTH ARE IN THE WRONG .
YOU HAVE THE TIME TO SPENT WITH OTHERS BUT NOT WITH YOUR GOD BRO . WHICH I FIND IT TOTALLY NONSENSE .
BUSY IS NOT AN EXCUSE . IT IS HOW U BALANCE YOUR TIME WELL .

I NEED MY CLOSEST FRIENDS WHERE ARE YOU ?
I WANT TO CRY N I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TOO .
I NEED YOUR SHOULDERS TO LIE ON .
I FELT LIKE LOOKING FOR YOU AND RELEASE EVERYTHING TO YOU .
KAKAK ANGKATS WHERE ARE U?
I HOPE TOMORROW BOTH OF YOU CAN MAKE IT .
I'M TOTALLY SAD RIGHT NOW .